Character Index
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The characters in my art are recurring characters in my dreams and have symbolic meaning for me, as well as a job to to.
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Julie:
This is a preteen girl who is of small stature with pale skin, mid-length shaggy blonde hair, blue eyes and freckles. She dresses like a tomboy and is very curious and spirited. She represents my child self. She is a vulnerable character who lives in fear of the Queen.
Antimatter Julie:
This is a dark version of Julie that has become twisted and vicious, mirroring back the trauma she has suffered. Antimatter Julie is a force to be reckoned with and is very violent and volatile. Her anger manifests as lightning bolts which she uses to defend herself. She appears as similar to Julie, a young girl of preteen age who wears clothing that looks like Knifewing, including a striped hoodie with animal ears and button eyes, a cord tail and wings of knives. Her blue eyes peer coldly from under her hoodie reflecting a precocious, protective part of the psyche that was forced to grow up too fast.
Knifewing
This is Julie’s animal ally or alter-ego. He resembles a combination of a horse, dog, donkey and dragon. She made him as her guardian out of materials she had around her such as fabric, buttons, electrical cord and electrical tape and knives and then, like Frankenstein’s monster, she brought him to life. Knifewing is powerful, able to cast lightning bolts and fly. He serves as Julie’s main protector, although he is not always easily controlled. Just like Julie, Knifewing has a dark version that is activated by traumatic events, transforming into The Guardian.
The Guardian
This is a humanoid version of Knifewing activated by The Grand Director to take care of internal problems, like parts of the self going into areas of the mind that are out of bounds, such as dissociated memories. He becomes like a jailor for the psyche. He has the same materials as Knifewing, including a cord tail, patchwork cloth in stripes and polka dots, and a helmet that resembles Knifewing’s head with jagged teeth, button eyes and long ears. He also has a staff sporting the head of Knifewing that is alive and moves on its own.
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The Grand Director
This is the overseer of the internal world who orchestrates and narrates the stories in my dreams. He is playfully maniacal and enjoys tormenting the rest of the dream characters. He is the stage director of the whole spectacle. He represents the overall defensive organization of the psyche and appears as an omniscient god-liken figure seemingly in charge of the dreamworld, though ironically, he too is another dream character.
Silas
He is a playmate of Julie/Blue Jay, an imaginary friend that only she can see. He is a trickster and a psychopomp like Mercury. His personality is sarcastic and teasing with flashes of false bravado. He leads Julie/Blue Jay along on her quest and also serves as another protector. He appears as a male with dark hair and eyes wearing an all black raven costume with a raven head helmet, feathers and loose-fitted samurai-like clothing. He usually carries a weapon like a sword/knife/gun/wand. He can change his appearance so that his age matches those of his female counterparts Julie/Blue Jay. He can transform into a raven or a ba bird, a human-headed avian figure representing one of the five souls that humans possess in Egyptian mythology.
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Blue Jay
This is an idealized adult version of Julie, or what she might like to grow up to be. She is strong and rebellious in temperament. She looks like a superhero with blue hair and makeup that looks like a superhero mask. Her clothes resemble that of a blue jay with a cape that is like wings and a bird’s tail. She also has a mask or crown on her head that is the face and beak of a bird. She resembles a shaman wearing the costume of her animal counterpart.
The Queen
She is a mother, a queen and sometimes a sorceress. She is very controlling, bitter and vicious and wants to punish Julie for questioning her authority. She wishes to control and consume Julie. In psychoanalytic lingo, she is a bad internalized object, the result of Julie’s identification with the aggressor.
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Princess
This is another adult version of Julie, though not a positive one. She is a personification of expectations for the female gender that fit into stereotypes. Basically she is everything that Julie feels she is being forced to be and she is a product of her upbringing and parental and societal expectations.